Okay, dig this: I've lived in the city for only a pidling three or
four years, but I've already experienced more than some ever hope (or
dread) to. I've seen things-scary things that left me questioning
(further) what exactly is sane or not. Well, I'd already made up my
mind that sanity, by definition, is determined by a majority that
thinks exactly alike, and therefore, sanity is nonexistant as there
are no two people (even clones) that actually DO think EXACTLY alike.
However I digress.

I'm sure everyone has experienced something that just didn't seem to
add up. Perhaps it defied the laws of physics, or it was a paradox, or
something else that just couldn't be explained and could only be
described as wierd. Maybe it was all of these things and more, it all
comes under the same subject. I know I'm paranoid-hey, everyone is to
a certain degree, but when you see something like police dumping
bodies, or a guy in a three piece suit driving a truck full of
industrial waste...well, you can pretty much do away with wondering if
you're a little too paranoid. You're obviously more than welcome to
have your own theorizations on that and other things, but I DO know
what I've seen.

It's hard to say when exactly this all started, but I do know when it
escalated. About two years ago, I had seen something that practically
left me in shock. It was unreal. I won't discuss it, because that has
gotten me into a world of trouble, but I'm getting ahead of myself. I
thought about this certain event for about three days, trying to come
up with a rational explanation, before talking to a former co-worker
about it. Evidently, that was a bad idea. From the point after I
talked to this co-worker about the ordeal, very bad things have been
happening. I've gotten annonymous automated threats over the phone
with absolutely no callback address on caller ID; I've been drugged;
people that could be described as "a little too strange" have
confronted me and ask me cryptic questions while other people that,
again, just don't look right watch me, and I've been asked by unlikely
friends to join (what I'd formerly say was) outlandish causes. Again,
I digress.

As I said, after discussing what I'd seen with that one co-worker,
wierd things happened to me. In addition to what I've already listed,
some of those afformentioned "strange" people started getting jobs at
this workplace. Normally, I wouldn't have thought anything about it,
but on occaision, about two or three of 'em would confront me whilst I
was alone and ask me odd questions. One of them even knew my screen
name online, and I hadn't ever talked to him before. No one else at
work had known my screen name prior to this. The person I talked to
about what I'd seen continued to question me sporatically about other
seemingly impossible instances.

One night, while at a local bar, a girl asked me very odd questions
after claiming to drug my drink. She refused to name what she put in
my drink, but left me saying she hoped it wouldn't hit me too hard. I
had hallucinations and occaisional loss of memory for a week
afterwards.

I started to notice that some people were watching me. It was
undeniable. There was no cause for this, as I've been described by
more than a few as looking "fairly nonchalant". I looked closer at the
people watching me and noticed that they just somehow didn't look
right. I mean in the sence that they didn't look human...not exactly.

I also noticed that some of them have been following me. The girl that
drugged me in the bar, I've seen at least four other times in vastly
seperate places. Always watching me. I've had friends varify it.

While on the subject of friends, I've made some lately that mentioned
other such experiences. When I bring up my experiences, they tend to
claim the friendship fate and then proceed to invite me to "enlist"
into their cause.

Sometimes, something happens that make you stagger back in
astonishment and wonder aloud "What the fuck IS going on?!" If this
isn't one of them, I'd like to know what is. I just know that unless
I'm crazy, most everyone else either ignores this kind of stuff or
they're just not looking hard enough, or maybe they don't WANT to see
it. Then again, maybe I DO belong in an asylum...

Scruffy Malk
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